Nithin writes chuthiyapa

This was honestly a shower thought, I sometimes get these random epiphanies but I rarely write with that in mind, and well I was not doing anything else so I thought I would act on it for a change. To keep you company while reading this, you can listen to this song - Let Down by Radiohead Since I last wrote something we are nearly on the brink of World War 3 and well I stopped keeping up with world politics, am convinced we are all doomed so I really don't even know who are our allies and who our enemies are. But I did learn about other things though, I learned more about myself and well, there could be things that other people can pick up from this as well. I realised a very specific character flaw that I have which I always knew about is getting out of control, my people pleasing attitude. I have always known it was bad, and that people would walk all over me if I kept it around, yet I somehow still retain it. I have been taught to always smile and always be nice to p...

I seldom write anymore, not because I don't want to, mostly because I can't. I think it was because of one of two things: all the unfinished drafts I have in this blog and even the last blog post I have in this blog, everything feels so low effort to me. There is no depth in it, as if there was no life in what I was writing, and I know it's true. Or the fact that I don't think it matters. Life is at an impasse, and I was thinking it was just for me, but it turns out that's not really the case. I was talking to one of my close friends/mentors, and he was super depressed about it as well. He said, and I quote, "It's as if life has no volatility anymore, nothing is exciting. It's like we are in low IV markets." I couldn't agree more with him. There are signs which point to impending doom, and we are acting as blind as we always have been about it. I don't think the general populace understands how bad things are, which is worrying. The world w...