Should I give up at this point?

Hey folks, I had promised myself that I would never write about love ever again, but bro, when my life is a more immense tragedy than what Shakespeare could ever dream about might as well write about it and vent the fuck out right! 

Let's start with the song for the blog, like always: did you/fall apart. 

I'll start with a story. This was when I was Pachgani there was a guy named Nikunj there, (Fuck you Nikunj) when we met he did not know I was Muslim, and I am not Muslim to be honest, I have never identified myself with that religion nor will I ever. 

I had faced issues related to Islamophobia before when I was travelling, so I had the habit of not telling people my full name. We were hanging out, and eventually, he asked me for my Instagram. And this was at that point when I actually had an Instagram account of my own. He saw my full name on my Instagram profile and goes, "Thu musalman hai kya?". And his whole demeanour changed.

Similarly, when I was Vashist, I was hanging out with a bunch of boys who were pretty much 18/19 as they were my roommates; suddenly, out of nowhere, they started talking about how their folks don't trade with Muslims as they bring bad luck. And they started talking about things that justified what their parents said, as in how their business prospered once they kicked out the Muslim partner. I was just mortified with all of this. We were having this conversation because I told them I was from Kerala, and the "Kerala Story" movie had just come out back then. 

I went to bed legitimately scared for my life that day. I knew these people did not know my full name, but I went through all my social media and online presence to make sure that nobody could figure out the religion I was born into. Heck, from my perspective, I did not want to get beaten up or murdered over a religion I don't practice or am associated with in any shape or form. 

I thought that was about it; things were done. I just have to be careful when am traveling and everything is hunky dory, and touchwood it has been like that. I have met other people in life, some assholes who share the same view and some good people who genuinely did not give two fucks whatever religion I was part of.

Coming to the story I was talking about in the start, I had a very recent ex, as you guys know. I mean, you would know if you have been reading my blog. Guess what was one of the reasons why we broke up? Yep! Religion. A religion which, again, I am not associated with in any way.  

You would think that's the end of it, but oh boy was I wrong, then I met someone else, I mean I always knew her we just got close very recently and very unexpectedly and we both liked each other a lot. It was very evident that she liked me, and I liked her too. We both felt safe with each other. Yet, things fell apart there, and guess what the reason was again. Religion. 

Now you might be thinking, okay, it happened once, it happened twice, it surely can't happen thirce, but boy it did. It happened again very recently. I am not going into the details because what's the point? It doesn't matter. 

What is the issue? I have no idea. Growing up, I never knew what the religion of my friends was. The first hint of this I faced was in high school. I never went to college, so college was okay. But the fact that this is rampant now is highlighting a very huge systemic issue. I am legitimately scared to live in this country, and I can never even imagine bringing in someone new to this world under the same conditions. 

I am not writing this because of whatever movies came out, nor am I trying to seek sympathy out of this post. I am just wondering when we all forgot to be human beings, when we forgot about the fact that we all bleed red, that religion was started as a way to domesticate people from barbarians into civilised members of society using fear as its means. 

When did the propaganda shift, and how would this end? I guess these are questions to which I don't know the answers and answers I do not want to know right now. I simply ask you guys to remember this: none of this matters, we all bleed red. Don't fall for propaganda, read more, everyone has flaws, everything is retarded at it's core.