"I'm starting to think bad luck is your best friend" - A

 Hey people,

2025 has been a series of bad lucks; the streak of bad lucks has been so bad at this point that I am taking it as a meme. And I feel like venting about it as it gives me solace and might as well stretch my vocabulary in the process, lol. Someone told me writing is a good exercise. 

Before we begin the song of the blog: Time by Pink Floyd,
Please do spend time focusing on the lyrics.

So let's start with the core root of all of this (this is a joke), which, in my opinion, is something one of my old friends said. This was back when I was in 8th grade, and I had a school senior named Ayesha. It was my birthday, and she told me, "Don't get yelled at by your teachers today; it will bring misfortune for the entire year," and then she explained how we should make sure our birthday and the beginning of the year go well. 

Being an atheist, I did not care about it, and to be honest, I don't think I care even now, but hey, it did strike me then, and I keep getting reminded about it every so often. Especially this year.  

Now, let's start with how this year has been so far, and remember all the events described right now are just events which has happened this year, which is 2025. 

January 1st 2025: I crashed Akash's car while coming back from the party. Damages manahani (defamation), and a tiny hole in the wallet. On the same day, I decided to end things with my ex as I did not want to carry any baggage from my previous year into this year, and I wanted a fresh start.

The breakup, I couldn't care less about it. The car crash, got me spooked by my friends had my back and reassured me everything was fine, and a core memory was made in the process. 

The rest of January went by so fast that I don't even remember what else happened. 

February 2025: Mistakes at work; to be honest, I was tired of work. Work ain't exciting anymore. I could do it in my sleep, and I was doing it mostly while sleeping, which in turn caused mistakes,  so ya, 2025 February ended up being that. 

March 2025: Mess-ups at work + the entire botched trip for Nepal.

After being stuck at home from October of 2024, I decided I would go somewhere, and I went to the Northeast. I had covered almost everywhere else in India by now, and Northeast was the alien place for me which was left. 

An impromptu trip, which started in Assam, took me to Meghalaya and then to Sikkim. While in Sikkim, I was given the idea of going to Nepal, but I did not have my voter's ID or Passport with me. The only thing I had was my Aadhar which is not even proof of citizenship in India  😑. I decided to get my passport shipped. Extended my stay in Sikkim by a month. 

The passport arrives. I booked my stay in Nepal and my Bus to Nepal. Here I am, super duper excited to cross an international border by road, and guess what happens! The day before I was supposed to go to Nepal, a riot broke out. 2 people died, and multiple people sustained injuries and were taken to hospitals. I am not sure if going is the right call. 

I did not want to be stuck in a foreign country with no signal and no cash, hence I decided to come home, came back home. But things had calmed down in Nepal. I mean, I do not regret not going, but it's just that I would never go to Nepal voluntarily. The place is a hellhole, and I decided I would go because I was reading the book Hippie by Paulo Coelho, and in the book, they get to Nepal via bus. Things just aligned, and I wanted to Carpe all them diems! And well, back I came to Kerala in the next available flight had to chuck the flight and stay costs. 

April 2025: The biggest month in terms of Dhanashtam (Financial loss).

On April 03 2025, in the morning, I take a trade for Rs. 30K, I knew markets were going for a toss and wanted to reap some rewards on that. Took a trade on Friday (April 04 2025). I saw 23K in net profits, and I exited. I mean, bro, 76% returns in one day who wouldn't. All the signals were screaming hold tho. Enter Monday, if I did not cash out I would have made 9.8L on market open. Being a trader for 7 years, getting everything right only to mess up in the end. 

Was sad about this, I was like fuck it, we will get new opportunities and I decided to gamble with 80K this time around and I lost 80K like a champ 👀.  Enter Vishu of 2025 (April 14 2025). I go to pick up a friend from Goa and end up gracing my car with someone else's car. Vishu is basically the new year in the Malayalam solar year.

This brings me back to what Aisha said. After being an atheist for as long as I can remember, I am starting to think that what Aysha said might have some merit this year. 

But honestly, the human brain is such a cheeky little bastard; there is something called Prospect Theory. Prospect Theory states that the pain you feel from losses will always be significantly more, even if you have happiness of the same amplitude. What that means in English is suppose you lose 100 bucks, the pain from losing this 100 bucks would be higher than the happiness you would feel if you get 100 bucks from somewhere with no effort as the emotion of pain has more depth than happiness. 

I decided to embrace the chaos like Joel says. Even if you look at it, all philosophers who ponder concepts like Absurdism and Nihilism eventually agree that life is meaningless and everything is pointless to begin with. 

Hopefully, nobody reads this, but if you made it thus far. Listen to this whole album by Pink Floyd if you like them, the transition between songs in this album is unparallel to anything I have ever heard before. 

Also remember kids, none of the series of back to back bad luck events mean squat shit everything is disconnected don't turn religious it's not vidhi (fate), life is a sine wave, it has peaks and valleys.  That's what makes it fun. It's life reminding us to be more careful. Bye cuties XOXO